you know that feeling............

when you have an awesome time wtih a decent person and you start having feelings for them,
but then you hear something through the grapevine
and you feel completely and totally used??

that's exactly how i am feeling right now.

USED.

i just wish that for once,
just once,
i could actually have a relationship
and not be shot down.
again.
and again.

thinking about that night,
~little p

heres my lovely theme song at the moment
hopefully not for long.

Hands touch, eyes meet
Sudden silence, sudden heat
Hearts leap in a giddy whirl
He could be that boy
But I'm not that girl.

Don't dream too far
Don't lose sight of who you are
Don't remember that rush of joy
He could be that boy
I'm not that girl

Ev'ry so often we long to steal
To the land of what-might-have-beenB
ut that doesn't soften the ache we feel
When reality sets back in

Blithe smile, lithe limb
She who's winsome, she wins him
Gold hair with gentle curl
That's the girl he chose
And heaven knowsI'm not that girl...

Don't wish, don't start
Wishing only wounds the heart
I wasn't born for the rose and pearl
There's a girl I know
He loves her so
I'm not that girl...